Assalamualaikum,
Hari ini, 30 November 2007 bersamaan 20 Zulkaedah 1428H, ayahanda tercinta saya; Haji Shahuddin bin Hj Mohd Tasit telah menghembuskan nafas terakhirnya pada jam 6.00pagi.
Apak, you are too special for me. Too quick, you leaved me. You go into another life which is hard for me to accept. Apak, I would never find someone as special as you. Apak, that I know for 32 years, tak pernah sekali pun tinggikan suara. Not even once! Percayalah.Apak...you are too special for all of us..Tak pernah lagi, Ina jumpa orang, and takde org yang tak pernah kata.."bapak kamu ni terlalu baik orang nya.." "terlalu penyabar".."Hj Din ni sebaik baik manusia.."
Apak, the last time I met you was on November 1st, 2007. (Exactly 30 days apak...)I hugged u really hard.."Apak, take a good care of yourself, jaga kesihatan". Heard you sobbed, but I ignored it. I have to be strong, Apak. I want you to be even stronger than me. Apak, I know that we really closed...
Apak, you are everything to me. First time Ina bejot, Ina telefon apak.."Dah besar anak apak". Masa Ina dapat offer pergi US, we both cried together..apak kata apak takut tak sempat tengok Ina balik..Then masa Ina nak nikah dengan Pejol, Ina telefon apak and you said.."Do it if you feel it is best for you, I will always bless u".
Masa dapat Nurin, Apak came with Mak and Along to US to meet their first and lovely grand daughther. Nurin call you ATOK. Nurin really loves his Atok. Atok took her jalan-jalan naik stroller along Chicago Downtown. Atok and Opah bawak Nurin jalan tepi Lake Michigan.
In the year 2003, Ina, Pejol, Nurin and Zarief pergi Manchester. Apak as usual, akan sentiasa menangis bila berjauhan. Apak, you always have your soft spot. Almost everyday, Ina telefon mak and apak from Manchester.
Bila balik Malaysia, Apak and Mak cukup suka, sebab boleh main-main dengan cucunya, Nurin and Zarief. A year later, ada baby, Zaidan. Zaidan cukup manja dengan Atok.
Apak, kalau Apak masih ada, I would like to tell you, setiap baris yang Ina type ni, Ina sebak. I really really love you Apak. I couldnt recall any moment or anyone ada masalah dengan Apak. Semua cucu-cucu Apak, sangat sayang dengan Atok. Nurin will always tell me, "Mama, kakak sayang sangat dengan Atok".
Recently, on 1st August, Birthday Atok, all of us celebrate awal, sebab I went to Makkah untuk bertugas on that day. We had dinner at Chiang Rai Restaurant. The food was sumptuous. Nurin wrote a card for Atok.."For my dearest grandfather, Atok. Happy Birthday. Really love you, Nurin, Zarif and Zaidan" Nurin designed the card while Abang deco it with sticker. Atok was so happy and proud to have wonderful cucu.
This 2007, many new things that we practised for improvement especially during Ramadhan. Kita makan sikit dulu, then kita solat jemaah. Apak akan selalu jadi Imam. Pastu, if weekend Ramadhan, PENUH. Ada Along, Anyah, Pejol, Uda, Chik, Achu, Mior, ChuPam, Mak, Ina, Kak Ana, Wani, Nurin and Ika. Not to mention, little monsters, Zarief and Zaidan. Normally, masa bukak puasa, Abang (Zarief) akan makan cekodok while Jid akan naik horse kat Atok or Opah or any of his uncles sujud.
Apak, our memories together will never be erased. Clearly in my mind, myheart. Still remember your favourite, MILO or Hot CHOC that i will always serve bila apak datang rumah Ina. "Apak suka kalau Ina buat air, tak manis, tak tawar, just nice..". Your favourite CURRY, kalau mak masak kari ikan, apak akan makan banyak....Apak, we both really love fish. We both not in favor of Beef or Chicken. Apak suka air soya bean, tapi Ina tak minum. Cucu apak suka...Tapi apak, your benchmark that everyone will never forget is.. MAKAN BUAH LEPAS MAKAN NASI....Your menantu, Pejol and your cucu Nurin follow that.
Apak seorang yang PALING SETIA. Kalau mak suruh apak ambik cucu, dia sanggup keluar awal, tunggu Nurin kat sekolah. Hari-hari, Atok akan hantar and ambil Zarief. Zarief sayang, by next year 2008, no one can replace Atok, sayang....You need to take bus or van. Kalau Ina n Pejol terlambat and rush to office, Apak akan hantar both of us to LRT. Tak pernah sekali Ina dengar Apak merungut, instead, mesti apak cakap..."Ina, bila dah sampai, call me. I want to pick you up. Dont take taxi". No matter what, you would always wait for us..kengkadang Ina dah naik cab, sebab Ina ingat Apak tak tunggu. Maafkan Ina, apak.
Apak adalah seorang yang PALING TENANG.Apak juga tak pernah marah. Kalau mak bising2, apak akan terus senyap. Paling tidak, Apak pergi masjid or baca Quran untuk tenangkan fikiran.Apak tak pernah panic. The coolest person ever ever ever that anyone has ever met!!
Apak adalah seorang PENDENGAR YANG PALING BAIK. Yes apak, you are the greatest listener. Kalau ada cerita, or any news, we both will discuss about it, intellectually. Kita bincang.Kalau Ina ada masalah, you will always lend me your ears. You dont say much, tapi cukup sekadar mendengar. Paling tidak you will rubbed at my back. I love you, Apak!
Apak is my WALKING DICTIONARY, as well as Nurin's. He is extreme superb in English. Your vocab is excellent, apak!
Apak is my best friend, my IDOL. I really miss you Apak. I dont know how to go through my life here in Tanah Suci alone. Apak, setiap masa, Ina akan cuba baca walau sebaris ayat Quran untuk Apak. Ina terlalu sayangkan Apak. I'm helpless Apak. Ina redha dengan pemergian Apak. Ina tahu, Ina yakin, insyaAllah Apak akan di tempatkan di kalangan orang yang beriman.
Ina tak menyesal Apak. I showed you the love that I have to you. I always hug you. I do said, Ina sayang Apak. Ina memang ambil berat tentang Apak. Cuma Ina ralat Apak, rumah Ina dekat Gombak, Apak tak sempat tengok.Apak dah ambik kunci tu from Pejol before he off to KK. Rumah yang Ina n Pejol plan to built at Kemensah lagi Ina ralat, Apak.Design rumah kat Kemensah, I designed it to make sure ada bilik kat lower floor untuk mak and apak duduk. Ina dah bayangkan bilik mak and apak mengadap kolam dalam rumah. Ina tahu apak suka ikan. Jein cakap dengan Ina, malam sebelum Apak pergi selamanya, you stared at kolam ikan kat luar rumah. Really stared. You were alone.
Apak, if only, any angels can bring this message to you, please tell my dearest daddy, that I WILL ALWAYS BE YOUR DADDY'S GIRL. I AM PROUD TO BE YOUR DAUGTHER.
Al Fatihah.
Love you endlessly,
Shaffina Shahuddin
Saturday, December 01, 2007
Thursday, November 22, 2007
Kengkadang kita penat.....
Salam to all my friends,
I am pretty sure all of us pernah came crossed statement .."penat la..". That statement sounds short and simple, yet it carries multiple meanings....
Penat can be PHYSICALLY EXHAUSTED, MENTALLY EXHAUSTED and SPRITUALLY EXHAUSTED....as for me, "penat laa.....sebab penat nak kena bebel, penat nak jaga hati orang and penat nak layan karenah orang.." Tu mental ke spritual? Entah. ENTAH would be the best or so called LAME excuse sebab malas dah nak pikir...or just want to simplify things.
Working here in Tanah Suci, requires high spirit, strong physically and mentally. Being away from my loved one....my deary husband Hafizul, and lovely 3 angels Nurin, Zarief and Zaidan cukup lah one of the greatest test that I have to go through. Takyah nak tambah lagi...
I have to adjust my biological body with this kind of weather, surrounding yang agak berdebu, kering, prone to have Upper Respiratory Infection, dengan all my team yang dah ramai demam and sakit tekak, cukuplaa tu...
Agaknya, I am having my PMS kot..(bejot) but I guess, I am tired..Kengkadang, pernah tak, kita rasa, you want to have some kind of "relaxed environment" with lotsa "chillinz friends" yang boleh gelak gelak...atleast...LAUGHTER IS THE BEST MEDICINE.
Ni tak, bila kita penat, bila orang tegur, u tend to take it negatively. Bie (anak Consulate Jeddah) cakap, "Adults like to think so much" and I do agree laa...mula la dah merepek bila kena tegur..but for me, kalau nak tegur, biarlah bila org (the recipient) tu tak penat, dah segar, or atleast speak in soft tones and relax.
What I wanted to say here is, kenapa la my boss tend to take me negatively. When I dont eat as much as her, she said..."I dont want to join u, sebab makan sikit sangat"."You will get sick sebab makan sikit sangat". Agaknya kalau dia tengok supermodel makan, mahu pitam kot dia..When I went back from PC installations at maktab (hotel untuk jemaah kat Makkah) late at nite, dia akan bebel.."You must take enuff rest, enuff sleep.." Oh well, I am not partying myself here. I want to finish my task ASAP...coz at the same time, she will said.."Ina, malam ni kena buat jugak Mubarak Plaza ehh sebab Pengurus Maktab dah banyak kali call". Confuse ehh? Pastu, during lunch time, on my birthday, I chatted with Nurin and husband, so, i didnt sleep during lunch break. Balik aje at my room, belum bukak kasut..."Ni kenapa tak tidur ni, I need your service not only now, but 2 more months.."..Penat tak? Why cant she wait till I take my shower ke, or atleast bukak kasut and tudung ke...
Kengkadang, physical exhaustion ni, is dragged and even worse bila mentally is being tested...
Or mungkin saya memang betul-betul penat...God, please give me strength and keep my spirit up...makin ramai jemaah nak masuk Tanah Suci.....
Sayang, I need you by my side.....
I am pretty sure all of us pernah came crossed statement .."penat la..". That statement sounds short and simple, yet it carries multiple meanings....
Penat can be PHYSICALLY EXHAUSTED, MENTALLY EXHAUSTED and SPRITUALLY EXHAUSTED....as for me, "penat laa.....sebab penat nak kena bebel, penat nak jaga hati orang and penat nak layan karenah orang.." Tu mental ke spritual? Entah. ENTAH would be the best or so called LAME excuse sebab malas dah nak pikir...or just want to simplify things.
Working here in Tanah Suci, requires high spirit, strong physically and mentally. Being away from my loved one....my deary husband Hafizul, and lovely 3 angels Nurin, Zarief and Zaidan cukup lah one of the greatest test that I have to go through. Takyah nak tambah lagi...
I have to adjust my biological body with this kind of weather, surrounding yang agak berdebu, kering, prone to have Upper Respiratory Infection, dengan all my team yang dah ramai demam and sakit tekak, cukuplaa tu...
Agaknya, I am having my PMS kot..(bejot) but I guess, I am tired..Kengkadang, pernah tak, kita rasa, you want to have some kind of "relaxed environment" with lotsa "chillinz friends" yang boleh gelak gelak...atleast...LAUGHTER IS THE BEST MEDICINE.
Ni tak, bila kita penat, bila orang tegur, u tend to take it negatively. Bie (anak Consulate Jeddah) cakap, "Adults like to think so much" and I do agree laa...mula la dah merepek bila kena tegur..but for me, kalau nak tegur, biarlah bila org (the recipient) tu tak penat, dah segar, or atleast speak in soft tones and relax.
What I wanted to say here is, kenapa la my boss tend to take me negatively. When I dont eat as much as her, she said..."I dont want to join u, sebab makan sikit sangat"."You will get sick sebab makan sikit sangat". Agaknya kalau dia tengok supermodel makan, mahu pitam kot dia..When I went back from PC installations at maktab (hotel untuk jemaah kat Makkah) late at nite, dia akan bebel.."You must take enuff rest, enuff sleep.." Oh well, I am not partying myself here. I want to finish my task ASAP...coz at the same time, she will said.."Ina, malam ni kena buat jugak Mubarak Plaza ehh sebab Pengurus Maktab dah banyak kali call". Confuse ehh? Pastu, during lunch time, on my birthday, I chatted with Nurin and husband, so, i didnt sleep during lunch break. Balik aje at my room, belum bukak kasut..."Ni kenapa tak tidur ni, I need your service not only now, but 2 more months.."..Penat tak? Why cant she wait till I take my shower ke, or atleast bukak kasut and tudung ke...
Kengkadang, physical exhaustion ni, is dragged and even worse bila mentally is being tested...
Or mungkin saya memang betul-betul penat...God, please give me strength and keep my spirit up...makin ramai jemaah nak masuk Tanah Suci.....
Sayang, I need you by my side.....
Sunday, November 18, 2007
Kakak, Abang and Baby
Ni gambar masa Raya kat Terengganu. Ada ke di hari raya pertama, boleh round2 pergi naik perahu nelayan...yelah..those kids mana pernah ada chance nak naik perahu...biarkan...
Today is my special day
Ari ni is my birthday. Got a pleasant suprise from my husband. So touched with his words...
"I wish we could be together to celebrate your special day, but i want you to know that i'll be celebrating it with you in my heart - a heart that's filled with so much love and pride for you now and always"
Semalam, at 12midnight, chatted with my little Nurin, while Babah was sleeping, saje je provoke "Kenapa babah tak wish mama Happy Birthday?" and she said "Mama, babah is tired, and maybe he forgot, but kakak sayang mama, that's why kakak wish mama.."
Yeah, this is my 2nd birthday, that I celebrate in Tanah Suci, semoga at this new digit of my age, my life is full of Allah's bless and grant with good health, wealth and happiness.
Amin, Ya Rabbal Alamin
"I wish we could be together to celebrate your special day, but i want you to know that i'll be celebrating it with you in my heart - a heart that's filled with so much love and pride for you now and always"
Semalam, at 12midnight, chatted with my little Nurin, while Babah was sleeping, saje je provoke "Kenapa babah tak wish mama Happy Birthday?" and she said "Mama, babah is tired, and maybe he forgot, but kakak sayang mama, that's why kakak wish mama.."
Yeah, this is my 2nd birthday, that I celebrate in Tanah Suci, semoga at this new digit of my age, my life is full of Allah's bless and grant with good health, wealth and happiness.
Amin, Ya Rabbal Alamin
Sorry for LONG SILENCE...
Salam to all my friends that never give up to read MAMANUNU...
Again, dah lama..bak kata Wani lagi...time raya Korban ajek..Tapi...last rasa Qorban, I was in Kuala Lumpur...tak buat pun :P
I guess, I will only make myself available masa di Tanah Suci. My 2nd and 3rd trip was quite short, thus, I didn't have chance to blog myself. This is my 4th visit to Tanah Suci and I tried my best to blog as often as I can.
More to write, more to share.
Fifie
Again, dah lama..bak kata Wani lagi...time raya Korban ajek..Tapi...last rasa Qorban, I was in Kuala Lumpur...tak buat pun :P
I guess, I will only make myself available masa di Tanah Suci. My 2nd and 3rd trip was quite short, thus, I didn't have chance to blog myself. This is my 4th visit to Tanah Suci and I tried my best to blog as often as I can.
More to write, more to share.
Fifie
Tuesday, December 26, 2006
Here I am again...
Gosh....the last time this blog was updated on 28th January 2006. Today is 26th Dec 2006. Almost a year! Kalau pregnant surely dah terberanak and dah settle confinement. Like Wani mentioned earlier..."lu update masa raya haji aje la.." and I replied.."selari dgn konsep KORBAN...korbankan masa...untuk update blog".
Anyway, will update more. This is just a beginning.
Anyway, will update more. This is just a beginning.
Saturday, January 28, 2006
Nurin is growing.
Safely arrived in Makkah at 6.15pm on 27th Jan. Journey was quite tiring sebab semalam completed my task at 1.00am. In my room, I called Kakak.
MAMA: Hello sayang
NURIN: Mama, hold kejap eh this phone, kakak nak angkat telefon lagi satu
Gosh, pandai pulak si kecik. She can differentiate, cakap kat dalam bilik Opah is clearer and better sebab she can baring atas katil.
NURIN: Opah, ok, dah boleh letak telefon. Hello mama, how are you?
MAMA: I am fine sayang, kakak ok ke?
NURIN: OK
MAMA: Kakak, are you watching TV? (she loves watching, tak larat dah nak tegur)
NURIN: I just switched off the tv. (PAUSED)
Rasanya, she felt guilty coz I can sensed that she is so worried takut kena marah sebab asyik tengok TV
NURIN: Mama, is that true that you are coming back 5 more days?
MAMA: Betul sayang. I will be home on Saturday. But sayang, you need to go to Terengganu first, pergi rumah Tok and Tokki with Babah and Abang.
NURIN: Mama, please...I m gonna miss you. Lagi pun tak boleh buat apa apa pun kat rumah Tokki. Asyik play with chicken aje. Please ma....Boring la ma...
MAMA: Nope sayang. In Terengganu, you can go to beach, makan A&W. There is so many thing that you can do there. Nurin kena teman babah, kesian babah balik sorang-sorang. Then you pick me up in the airport.
NURIN: Alright...(sigh)
MAMA: Sayang, I heard you keep on fighting with Abang? Is that true?
NURIN: Mama, I guess we just hate each other.
I was laughing. Gila punye gelak...WE JUST HATE EACH OTHER. Pandai pulak dia guna word HATE. Dah macam couple, dah give sebab cannot get along.
MAMA: Sayang, you can't say that. He is your little brother. U need to love each other.
NURIN: Ma, believe me, we just don't like each other. He keep on teasing me, that is why I hurt him back.
MAMA: Sayang, you need to show to Abang, that you love him. Tell him that if he beat you up, "tak elok, nanti Allah marah". You need to show to Abang, that you are a good sister.
NURIN: But Mama, he will always be with Mimi (my niece) and follows what Mimi did like throw things and jerit-jerit. I don't like it ma..(Nurin is protokol sikit orang nya....Sopan. Thus, that is why she dislikes sepah2 and kasar2)
MAMA: Sayang, promise me that you won't gaduh with Abang and be a good sister.
NURIN: Promise ma. Ma, i have started reading books but Babah never buy me new books. And now, I don't read anymore.
Pandai kakak salahkan Babah. Padahal, rasanya banyak buku kat bilik dia. Hehehe..
Dah jadi macam Mama, put babah as scape goat. Sorry sayang...Can't help it, girls love to blame someone else.
Heard Zaidan's crying. Opah bising-bising.
MAMA: Why Zaidan's crying, sayang?
NURIN: Ala, biasalah Zaidan. Terkejut la tu....
Gosh, my girl dah pandai cari "lame excuse".
MAMA: Tu yang opah bising-bising tu kenapa?
NURIN: Ala ma, Opah marah Kak Ika sebab Kak Ika tak ambik Zaidan. Ma, Kak Ika sekarang asyik nak tolong Kak Siti (my mom's maid) aje. Kak Ika garang tau mama.
Dah pandai report ehhh???
MAMA: It is alright sayang. Soon, when I go home, thing is gonna be ok.
NURIN: Ma, please balik cepat sikit.
Time runs so fast. Without realizing it, my lil girl is growing. She is just 7 year-old and 1-month. I remembered on 27th December 1998, masa nak bersalin Nurin. The whole day, I went out shopping with my husband. Malam tu, he stopped at Pizza Shuttle in Milwaukee, beli Veg Pizza and Coke. Balik rumah makan, sebab lapar giler. Around 2.30am, sakit perut memulas. Muntah non stop, lying helplessly kat dalam toilet (dulu toilet kat US pakai carpet). 6.00am, Hafizul sent me to St Mary Hospital. Doctor told me "You have dilated for about 3cm. We need to monitor you closer". Around 5.00pm, still at 3cm. Then, the doc induced me. At 11.45pm, doc realized that I was about to give birth. To be exact of 0030 (12.30am) 28 December 1998, Wan Nurina was safely came into this world by Dr Katherine Lee. Hafizul was so happy. Dr Katherine honored him by giving the scissor to cut off Nurin's umbilical cord, but he refused. Geli, katanya. You are very funny, love.
Nurin is a lucky girl. She is just 7 year-old, yet has been merata-rata, US, UK, Europe and even Australia. She is an apple of everyone's eyes di rumah. Cucu pertama and get a first-class treatment from Opah, Atuk, Tok and Tokki. First niece for Paklong, Anyah, Uda, Chik, Achu, Maklong Syafiq, AyahDe, ChikHa, ChikWan and Su Mi.
And now, without the existence of her mom for almost 3 months, she grew like a big girl. She starts to know the definition of love, responsibility, care and even hatred. Whatever it is, Nurin will always be our little precious princess.
Mama, from far, will always pray for you to have a better future so that you can be a better person with better living, pandai menghormati orang tua dan orang susah.
Above all, Mama and Babah will always love you......
MAMA: Hello sayang
NURIN: Mama, hold kejap eh this phone, kakak nak angkat telefon lagi satu
Gosh, pandai pulak si kecik. She can differentiate, cakap kat dalam bilik Opah is clearer and better sebab she can baring atas katil.
NURIN: Opah, ok, dah boleh letak telefon. Hello mama, how are you?
MAMA: I am fine sayang, kakak ok ke?
NURIN: OK
MAMA: Kakak, are you watching TV? (she loves watching, tak larat dah nak tegur)
NURIN: I just switched off the tv. (PAUSED)
Rasanya, she felt guilty coz I can sensed that she is so worried takut kena marah sebab asyik tengok TV
NURIN: Mama, is that true that you are coming back 5 more days?
MAMA: Betul sayang. I will be home on Saturday. But sayang, you need to go to Terengganu first, pergi rumah Tok and Tokki with Babah and Abang.
NURIN: Mama, please...I m gonna miss you. Lagi pun tak boleh buat apa apa pun kat rumah Tokki. Asyik play with chicken aje. Please ma....Boring la ma...
MAMA: Nope sayang. In Terengganu, you can go to beach, makan A&W. There is so many thing that you can do there. Nurin kena teman babah, kesian babah balik sorang-sorang. Then you pick me up in the airport.
NURIN: Alright...(sigh)
MAMA: Sayang, I heard you keep on fighting with Abang? Is that true?
NURIN: Mama, I guess we just hate each other.
I was laughing. Gila punye gelak...WE JUST HATE EACH OTHER. Pandai pulak dia guna word HATE. Dah macam couple, dah give sebab cannot get along.
MAMA: Sayang, you can't say that. He is your little brother. U need to love each other.
NURIN: Ma, believe me, we just don't like each other. He keep on teasing me, that is why I hurt him back.
MAMA: Sayang, you need to show to Abang, that you love him. Tell him that if he beat you up, "tak elok, nanti Allah marah". You need to show to Abang, that you are a good sister.
NURIN: But Mama, he will always be with Mimi (my niece) and follows what Mimi did like throw things and jerit-jerit. I don't like it ma..(Nurin is protokol sikit orang nya....Sopan. Thus, that is why she dislikes sepah2 and kasar2)
MAMA: Sayang, promise me that you won't gaduh with Abang and be a good sister.
NURIN: Promise ma. Ma, i have started reading books but Babah never buy me new books. And now, I don't read anymore.
Pandai kakak salahkan Babah. Padahal, rasanya banyak buku kat bilik dia. Hehehe..
Dah jadi macam Mama, put babah as scape goat. Sorry sayang...Can't help it, girls love to blame someone else.
Heard Zaidan's crying. Opah bising-bising.
MAMA: Why Zaidan's crying, sayang?
NURIN: Ala, biasalah Zaidan. Terkejut la tu....
Gosh, my girl dah pandai cari "lame excuse".
MAMA: Tu yang opah bising-bising tu kenapa?
NURIN: Ala ma, Opah marah Kak Ika sebab Kak Ika tak ambik Zaidan. Ma, Kak Ika sekarang asyik nak tolong Kak Siti (my mom's maid) aje. Kak Ika garang tau mama.
Dah pandai report ehhh???
MAMA: It is alright sayang. Soon, when I go home, thing is gonna be ok.
NURIN: Ma, please balik cepat sikit.
Time runs so fast. Without realizing it, my lil girl is growing. She is just 7 year-old and 1-month. I remembered on 27th December 1998, masa nak bersalin Nurin. The whole day, I went out shopping with my husband. Malam tu, he stopped at Pizza Shuttle in Milwaukee, beli Veg Pizza and Coke. Balik rumah makan, sebab lapar giler. Around 2.30am, sakit perut memulas. Muntah non stop, lying helplessly kat dalam toilet (dulu toilet kat US pakai carpet). 6.00am, Hafizul sent me to St Mary Hospital. Doctor told me "You have dilated for about 3cm. We need to monitor you closer". Around 5.00pm, still at 3cm. Then, the doc induced me. At 11.45pm, doc realized that I was about to give birth. To be exact of 0030 (12.30am) 28 December 1998, Wan Nurina was safely came into this world by Dr Katherine Lee. Hafizul was so happy. Dr Katherine honored him by giving the scissor to cut off Nurin's umbilical cord, but he refused. Geli, katanya. You are very funny, love.
Nurin is a lucky girl. She is just 7 year-old, yet has been merata-rata, US, UK, Europe and even Australia. She is an apple of everyone's eyes di rumah. Cucu pertama and get a first-class treatment from Opah, Atuk, Tok and Tokki. First niece for Paklong, Anyah, Uda, Chik, Achu, Maklong Syafiq, AyahDe, ChikHa, ChikWan and Su Mi.
And now, without the existence of her mom for almost 3 months, she grew like a big girl. She starts to know the definition of love, responsibility, care and even hatred. Whatever it is, Nurin will always be our little precious princess.
Mama, from far, will always pray for you to have a better future so that you can be a better person with better living, pandai menghormati orang tua dan orang susah.
Above all, Mama and Babah will always love you......
Thursday, January 26, 2006
I am sorry, love....
Here again, updating my blog. Hari ni ada orang asked me. NUNU tu apa? NUNU means BABY in ARAB. My kids (always be my baby) is my everything. This blog would be my best tribute to all my angels, NURIN, ZARIEF and ZAIDAN
Then, my bestest (my good friend ever aka platonic relationship in my office) asked me, BLOG tu apa? Oh well, previously, I enjoyed reading my high school friends' blogs, in which I personally define it as e-journal. Tapi when I refer to the website, BLOG is a easy-to-use website where you can quickly post your thoughts, photo and interact with people and more. Wani, my adik's high-school girlfriend (harap2 kekal selamanya) finally made me realized the happening part of having my e-journal. Thanks, sis! Plus, I think I want to share my journey to this Holy Land gave me the momentum to write. Gosh, my husband mesti pelik..Nape fie tetiba rajin nak tulis ni? He knows that I love reading, but not writing. Again, this lovely NUNU is my best tribute to all my munchkins plus and best way to share my thoughts everytime I travel.
Last nite, I was lying on my bed, exhausted! Whole day trying to setup my final assignment before leave this Holy Land, I was stucked with NTU (so called digital modem) config. Need to make sure my internal wiring and router config nicely match before this new digital lines up and running for a very first time for Tabung Haji. Watching the ceiling, I have started to think about my other half. I miss you.. so much, and I couldnt close my eyes, afraid that I am losing his sight. Then, I text him..."Sayang, I miss u. Cant sleep rite now. Kept thinking abt u. Hv another 8 days to suffer. Tomorrow to Jeddah to send Pakman and new NTU installation. Pliz send me an email. Luv u endlessly". Sent 24th Jan 01:59:58. I waited and waited for his reply since I knew that time, surely my other half is preparing to office. Bolt from the blue, I got 2 sms on that very night, one at 02:25:15 (2 pagi..ngantuk laa..) and one at 02:45:33. Both not from my husband. I felt something that I couldnt put it into word. Nak kata sedih pun mungkin, self anger pun mungkin..and maybe my period is just around the corner, I can simply put my biological circulation together with my hormones changes as my scape goat! How come other men can express their feelings in the mid of the night while my significant other not even responded my text and I am pretty sure that he is not sleeping at that very moment????!!**&%#@&*^
Woke up at 6.25am, I called him coz I was expecting his reply throughout the night. "Kenapa sayang tak reply my sms?" and he said "bila sms?". Paused. "oh yeah, pagi tadi. I was driving at that time, kenapa sayang?". Aikk. Kenapa????? Gosh, have you ever experienced this???. I said "takmau lah sms lagi, you never care about me!". Hang up.
Merajuk. Of course. You can call me a Mushy Type of wife, but at that very moment, I felt so bad. It has been a while, I never received his phone call and email. Best reason: Sibuk. Then, typical woman, I sms him back kengkonon nak tunjuk marah..., "U seriously have changed my mood. I guess u never put me as your main priority in life. U dont even remember that I've sent sms. Then I try not to hv contact with u til my last day coz I am nobody to u. U jez made me feel useless. I was so stupid since I am so into you while u never once think about me" Sent: 24-Jan-2006 07:05:47. Murky faced.
I have another 10 mins before my trip to Jeddah. Quickly logged into my office mail. I scrolled down and search sender:HAFIZUL. Ada. Clicked. I was so touched. Paused. Without realizing it, I broke into tears. I am so sorry love. Sorry for being so childish. I was too emotional with this unreciprocated sms. I guess we both miss each other terribly. Rushed into car, off to Jeddah with guilt. Regret of putting so much expectation from my husband.
We love each other. So much.....
I got 2 sms from him while in Jeddah. Tried not to reply. But his 3rd sms..."Sayang, I hope u r not mad at me. About to sleep now. In my mind, keep on thinking abt u. How special u r to me. I wish u can come into my dream. Sometimes I talked to myself like a crazy man coz i miss your touch, your voice, everything about you. U sleep tight tonite. Luv u"
I am sorry love....
Replied: "There is nothing in my life more important than u and our angels. Fie mintak maaf. I love you and always do". Sent 24 Jan 2006 21:06:10.
I am in a cloud nine. Like always.
Today, I completed most of my assignment. NTU for Jeddah and Mecca all installed. DataCenter in Syisya also done. Working papers for Cisco done. Bill of Material for datacomm equipment done. Almost done. Called Mr Raz from Saudi Net. Alamak, "maa fi english". Rahman my driver la jadik traslater bidan terjun. Laaa...need to complete Madinah jugak ke before lines activation? Ikshhh...need to go to Madinah soon. Pikir punye pikir, I need to finish ASAP, so that I can be with my darling and munchkins soon. I am leaving to Medina esok, 26th Jan 2005. Done.
Nor, my highschool friend also jemaah this 1426H requested to bring her to Pasar Kurma Mekah. Rahman, dengan setianya brought me there with Razak, Nor and her husband. Beli kurma and pistachio, then I dragged Nor to Syisya, to add new cable and final touch before leaving to Medina tomorrow. Cari Nor, Rahman kata dia jumpa orang kat ward. Then I went to see Nor's roomate, Makcik Selema. Org Muar. Fractured at her pelvic bone. But she looks happy sebab lusa dah nak balik Malaysia. Done chat. I saw one makcik lying. Very skinny and seriously very skinny. Slowly bend down and grabbed her hand. "Makcik dah makan?" I saw her tears. Slowly caressed her boney arm, I talked to her. "Makcik asal mana?" She said "Sungai Petani". But to all my dear blog-reader, if any read this, please pray for her health. I beg you. The best thing to describe her (may be harsh, but I didnt mean to) is like a living skeleton. Imagine, her thigh is half of my arm!!! Her temple is too boney. Her eyes is too big for her teeny face. I was just wondering, macam mana makcik ni boleh flew all the way from Malaysia to Saudi? The best answer to this, her urge and innerwill to perform haj. Gosh! How could her kids can let her do this all by her self. (maybe dia takde anak..). She told me that "makcik terjatuh kat bilik ayarg masa di Mina". MasyaAllah. I guess tu sebab Allah doesnt let me be a doctor. If not, I would be self depressing, kesian tengok patient. Then I said, "alhamdullilah, saya tengok makcik kuat semangat". She smiled. Enough to make me cried in my heart. Ya Allah, berilah kesihatan yang lebih baik kepada makcik ini. Dia cukup kuat untuk harungi semua. I felt her grip stronger, as I rubbed her forehead. To all my friend out there, kalau ada parents or any relatives yang nak perform haj, please please make sure they got their immediate family as companion. Sekurang2nya boleh tolong pimpin masa jalan dari Mina Muaissim ke Jamrat (tempat melontar), boleh pegang masa pegi toilet, and above all, can always be by their side when need to give moral support. Then, ada nurse came in, distribute food for dinner. Razak kata, "jom balik, nurse nak bagi makan". I slowly caressed her soft hand, cakap "makcik, saya balik dulu. Saya nak pi kerja, insyaAllah kita jumpa lagi. Makcik makan ye..". Kissed her hand and forehead, I saw tears in her. Ya Allah, keep me strong please! Quickly turned to Makcik Selema, salam, and bid farewell to all.
Leaving Syisya with broken heart. Ya Allah, sihatkan makcik tadi. Throughout the journey to Habibah terpikir. Ya Allah, kurniakanlah rezeki kepadaku dan suami supaya dapat aku dapat bawa mok dan ayoh ke Tanah Suci secepat mungkin. Ayoh tu yang risau sikit. He is slowly recovered from his stroke. Ayoh tak boleh jalan betul-betul. Takut ayoh penat masa Tawaf, Saie, and Melontar nanti. InsyaAllah ayoh kuat. And I will always pray for all my families to be in a pink of health. InsyaAllah.
Right now, Kak Nor, Mariam and Jaz went out shopping. Leaving me and Razak in this office. Time to off now sebab esok nak bangun awal for Tawaf Wida' sebelum ke Medina.
Hope I am not having my period lagi since I want to perform Tawaf and kalau sempat ziarah Rasullullah di Masjidil Nabawi.
To all my friends, appreciate the love that you have surrounding you; yourself, your other half, your kids, your parents, your friends, your relatives, your health, your wealth, your happiness and above all, your Creator.
Love all of you, my dear friends and to my darling husband, I will always love you, more than anything in this whole world.
Then, my bestest (my good friend ever aka platonic relationship in my office) asked me, BLOG tu apa? Oh well, previously, I enjoyed reading my high school friends' blogs, in which I personally define it as e-journal. Tapi when I refer to the website, BLOG is a easy-to-use website where you can quickly post your thoughts, photo and interact with people and more. Wani, my adik's high-school girlfriend (harap2 kekal selamanya) finally made me realized the happening part of having my e-journal. Thanks, sis! Plus, I think I want to share my journey to this Holy Land gave me the momentum to write. Gosh, my husband mesti pelik..Nape fie tetiba rajin nak tulis ni? He knows that I love reading, but not writing. Again, this lovely NUNU is my best tribute to all my munchkins plus and best way to share my thoughts everytime I travel.
Last nite, I was lying on my bed, exhausted! Whole day trying to setup my final assignment before leave this Holy Land, I was stucked with NTU (so called digital modem) config. Need to make sure my internal wiring and router config nicely match before this new digital lines up and running for a very first time for Tabung Haji. Watching the ceiling, I have started to think about my other half. I miss you.. so much, and I couldnt close my eyes, afraid that I am losing his sight. Then, I text him..."Sayang, I miss u. Cant sleep rite now. Kept thinking abt u. Hv another 8 days to suffer. Tomorrow to Jeddah to send Pakman and new NTU installation. Pliz send me an email. Luv u endlessly". Sent 24th Jan 01:59:58. I waited and waited for his reply since I knew that time, surely my other half is preparing to office. Bolt from the blue, I got 2 sms on that very night, one at 02:25:15 (2 pagi..ngantuk laa..) and one at 02:45:33. Both not from my husband. I felt something that I couldnt put it into word. Nak kata sedih pun mungkin, self anger pun mungkin..and maybe my period is just around the corner, I can simply put my biological circulation together with my hormones changes as my scape goat! How come other men can express their feelings in the mid of the night while my significant other not even responded my text and I am pretty sure that he is not sleeping at that very moment????!!**&%#@&*^
Woke up at 6.25am, I called him coz I was expecting his reply throughout the night. "Kenapa sayang tak reply my sms?" and he said "bila sms?". Paused. "oh yeah, pagi tadi. I was driving at that time, kenapa sayang?". Aikk. Kenapa????? Gosh, have you ever experienced this???. I said "takmau lah sms lagi, you never care about me!". Hang up.
Merajuk. Of course. You can call me a Mushy Type of wife, but at that very moment, I felt so bad. It has been a while, I never received his phone call and email. Best reason: Sibuk. Then, typical woman, I sms him back kengkonon nak tunjuk marah..., "U seriously have changed my mood. I guess u never put me as your main priority in life. U dont even remember that I've sent sms. Then I try not to hv contact with u til my last day coz I am nobody to u. U jez made me feel useless. I was so stupid since I am so into you while u never once think about me" Sent: 24-Jan-2006 07:05:47. Murky faced.
I have another 10 mins before my trip to Jeddah. Quickly logged into my office mail. I scrolled down and search sender:HAFIZUL. Ada. Clicked. I was so touched. Paused. Without realizing it, I broke into tears. I am so sorry love. Sorry for being so childish. I was too emotional with this unreciprocated sms. I guess we both miss each other terribly. Rushed into car, off to Jeddah with guilt. Regret of putting so much expectation from my husband.
We love each other. So much.....
I got 2 sms from him while in Jeddah. Tried not to reply. But his 3rd sms..."Sayang, I hope u r not mad at me. About to sleep now. In my mind, keep on thinking abt u. How special u r to me. I wish u can come into my dream. Sometimes I talked to myself like a crazy man coz i miss your touch, your voice, everything about you. U sleep tight tonite. Luv u"
I am sorry love....
Replied: "There is nothing in my life more important than u and our angels. Fie mintak maaf. I love you and always do". Sent 24 Jan 2006 21:06:10.
I am in a cloud nine. Like always.
Today, I completed most of my assignment. NTU for Jeddah and Mecca all installed. DataCenter in Syisya also done. Working papers for Cisco done. Bill of Material for datacomm equipment done. Almost done. Called Mr Raz from Saudi Net. Alamak, "maa fi english". Rahman my driver la jadik traslater bidan terjun. Laaa...need to complete Madinah jugak ke before lines activation? Ikshhh...need to go to Madinah soon. Pikir punye pikir, I need to finish ASAP, so that I can be with my darling and munchkins soon. I am leaving to Medina esok, 26th Jan 2005. Done.
Nor, my highschool friend also jemaah this 1426H requested to bring her to Pasar Kurma Mekah. Rahman, dengan setianya brought me there with Razak, Nor and her husband. Beli kurma and pistachio, then I dragged Nor to Syisya, to add new cable and final touch before leaving to Medina tomorrow. Cari Nor, Rahman kata dia jumpa orang kat ward. Then I went to see Nor's roomate, Makcik Selema. Org Muar. Fractured at her pelvic bone. But she looks happy sebab lusa dah nak balik Malaysia. Done chat. I saw one makcik lying. Very skinny and seriously very skinny. Slowly bend down and grabbed her hand. "Makcik dah makan?" I saw her tears. Slowly caressed her boney arm, I talked to her. "Makcik asal mana?" She said "Sungai Petani". But to all my dear blog-reader, if any read this, please pray for her health. I beg you. The best thing to describe her (may be harsh, but I didnt mean to) is like a living skeleton. Imagine, her thigh is half of my arm!!! Her temple is too boney. Her eyes is too big for her teeny face. I was just wondering, macam mana makcik ni boleh flew all the way from Malaysia to Saudi? The best answer to this, her urge and innerwill to perform haj. Gosh! How could her kids can let her do this all by her self. (maybe dia takde anak..). She told me that "makcik terjatuh kat bilik ayarg masa di Mina". MasyaAllah. I guess tu sebab Allah doesnt let me be a doctor. If not, I would be self depressing, kesian tengok patient. Then I said, "alhamdullilah, saya tengok makcik kuat semangat". She smiled. Enough to make me cried in my heart. Ya Allah, berilah kesihatan yang lebih baik kepada makcik ini. Dia cukup kuat untuk harungi semua. I felt her grip stronger, as I rubbed her forehead. To all my friend out there, kalau ada parents or any relatives yang nak perform haj, please please make sure they got their immediate family as companion. Sekurang2nya boleh tolong pimpin masa jalan dari Mina Muaissim ke Jamrat (tempat melontar), boleh pegang masa pegi toilet, and above all, can always be by their side when need to give moral support. Then, ada nurse came in, distribute food for dinner. Razak kata, "jom balik, nurse nak bagi makan". I slowly caressed her soft hand, cakap "makcik, saya balik dulu. Saya nak pi kerja, insyaAllah kita jumpa lagi. Makcik makan ye..". Kissed her hand and forehead, I saw tears in her. Ya Allah, keep me strong please! Quickly turned to Makcik Selema, salam, and bid farewell to all.
Leaving Syisya with broken heart. Ya Allah, sihatkan makcik tadi. Throughout the journey to Habibah terpikir. Ya Allah, kurniakanlah rezeki kepadaku dan suami supaya dapat aku dapat bawa mok dan ayoh ke Tanah Suci secepat mungkin. Ayoh tu yang risau sikit. He is slowly recovered from his stroke. Ayoh tak boleh jalan betul-betul. Takut ayoh penat masa Tawaf, Saie, and Melontar nanti. InsyaAllah ayoh kuat. And I will always pray for all my families to be in a pink of health. InsyaAllah.
Right now, Kak Nor, Mariam and Jaz went out shopping. Leaving me and Razak in this office. Time to off now sebab esok nak bangun awal for Tawaf Wida' sebelum ke Medina.
Hope I am not having my period lagi since I want to perform Tawaf and kalau sempat ziarah Rasullullah di Masjidil Nabawi.
To all my friends, appreciate the love that you have surrounding you; yourself, your other half, your kids, your parents, your friends, your relatives, your health, your wealth, your happiness and above all, your Creator.
Love all of you, my dear friends and to my darling husband, I will always love you, more than anything in this whole world.
Saturday, January 21, 2006
Feelings eh?
Today I have quite mixed feelings.
Funny, kenapa hari ni rasa semua...started with sympathy with jemaah yang muntah darah, ....then rasa tak comfortable plak with Razak.. yelaahhh.. Razak, u know that I dont really favor manusia tanya beribu kali the same question..."Ina, nak bawak modem ke tak? Nak bawak router jugak ke?" Ikshhh.. bukan ke dah cakap..."Razak, Hospital Aziziah ada problem with modem, saya nak bawak modem, tapi di Syisya I need to config my new router for new Digital lines". Pastu masa nak tunggu kereta, I saw him carrying router only. Padahal kat atas, tanya the same question again and again for many times.... Gosh! really test me eh?
I guess it was my fault kot. Maybe Razak tak tau my plan kot...Memula takmau pegi, but rasa tak sampai hati plak....Finally ikut. Tu yang dia confused tu...
In Syisya, so happy sebab dah boleh up kan router baru, 1050... emmm ingatkan tak reti.. but also thanks for my dear Zainal that never give up to check my keje ok ke idak...tengkiu mister!
Balik, 2 mamats tried to sms me again and again.. iksshhhhh... serabut laaa....sudah la tu. I wanna take a nap. About 30 mins, I woke up, then Zohor, pastu terkebil2, nape takleh tido ni? Kak Nor and Mariam dah selamat dah.....Then, Hj Amran sms me saying that he gave up with this RA yang buat dia tunggu lama kat lobby (typical VIPs, they would take their own sweet time but yet easily get angry if we MACAI made them wait plak...) Then, I jumped from my bed, susun barang2 nak bawak balik. Unload all things from my big bag, then started to do a checklist. Then I finally found out that baju for my adik ipar takde lagi..emm..kena shopping lagi? Ikshhhh....self guilt sebab takut overspend lagi.
Masuk office, byk plak email from Jabatan Haji to THTS, Bilik Gerakan and Pentadbiran but all via me.. hehehehe....Funny...it shows how often I read email, tu yg they rely on my email to get in touch with all of thems.And again, so happy sebab dapat email from my bestest friend whom never give up to update me about my office back home. Thanks Cikmad....So excited, terus reply his email, quite panjang, tell him about myself di sini plak. Oh well, berborak is our fav thing to do in office and i miss that moment with him.
After berbuka puasa, I went up to do my solat, then nampak a phone call from Malaysia and "hello?", "Fie...." "Aiikkkk???? Sayang, I thought you went to Singapore? Memanglah. It is a day-trip. I have changed my mind. "Sayang, I miss you very much...dah tak larat dah ni..Balik lah cepat" Oh my god!! That is so heart-breaking. I was so flattered with him. Speechless. Sayang, I miss you too, God knows. I am counting my days right now. I told him, "sayang, if you can patiently wait for 64 days, kenapa 12 days pun tak boleh nak tunggu?" He said..."Dah tak larat la sayang....I seriously miss you, and I want you by myside" Anak-anak mana sayang? "Semua kat rumah mak, dah tidur dah.." . Kesian...Earlier I made a proposal to Pakman after return from Syisya not to continue the digital testing since Zainal is willingly to take up this job upon his turn 1427H. Then can I go home together with you on 25th? Senyum aje Pakman....He said, atleast buat satu jee...
After Isya plak, I got sms from my so-called secret admirer in Malaysia, saying that he miss me so much. Ni kenapa pulak satu hari ni banyak betul manusia kaum Adam yang rindu nih? Mana yang authentic mana yang hoax? But one thing for sure, I miss my husband terribly.
I was amazed with the article that I have read over the internet. "Difference bewteen Men and Women". If my bestest is around, i bet we both will argue about this article in which I guess it is quite true.
http://news.yahoo.com/s/nm/20060119/od_nm/science_revenge1_dc
Last week babah called me said that he demanded abang and kakak to sleep at home after zarief slapped zaidan (merah pipi, kata opah) I spoke to abang.."Mama, abang pukul zaidan. Noti noti zaidan, then abang pukul zaidan" I asked him "Kenapa abang pukul zaidan" "Zaidan marah abang, then abang pukulla.. Noti Zaidan" Then he laughed.....emmmm I guess enjoyed looking adik dia kena pukul ehhh?? Heheheh.. kids.. esp boys...Then i told abang "No no pukul Zaidan, Allah will cut your hand" then abang said "Sorry mama, I love you , mama" I told him, "You should kiss and say sorry to Zaidan". Then dengar he said, "sorry zaidan". Cute eh? What I wanted to convey is, cuba refer to the article, womens can easily rasa kesian, while men can enjoy on someone's elso misfortune. Dalam ayat rock kapak, would be, most men is so slamber and insensitive. Sorry sayang, I didnt mean all these to you, love. Not all men laaa....
Done nagging. I guess, I prefer to keep positive in me. Need to off now.
Funny, kenapa hari ni rasa semua...started with sympathy with jemaah yang muntah darah, ....then rasa tak comfortable plak with Razak.. yelaahhh.. Razak, u know that I dont really favor manusia tanya beribu kali the same question..."Ina, nak bawak modem ke tak? Nak bawak router jugak ke?" Ikshhh.. bukan ke dah cakap..."Razak, Hospital Aziziah ada problem with modem, saya nak bawak modem, tapi di Syisya I need to config my new router for new Digital lines". Pastu masa nak tunggu kereta, I saw him carrying router only. Padahal kat atas, tanya the same question again and again for many times.... Gosh! really test me eh?
I guess it was my fault kot. Maybe Razak tak tau my plan kot...Memula takmau pegi, but rasa tak sampai hati plak....Finally ikut. Tu yang dia confused tu...
In Syisya, so happy sebab dah boleh up kan router baru, 1050... emmm ingatkan tak reti.. but also thanks for my dear Zainal that never give up to check my keje ok ke idak...tengkiu mister!
Balik, 2 mamats tried to sms me again and again.. iksshhhhh... serabut laaa....sudah la tu. I wanna take a nap. About 30 mins, I woke up, then Zohor, pastu terkebil2, nape takleh tido ni? Kak Nor and Mariam dah selamat dah.....Then, Hj Amran sms me saying that he gave up with this RA yang buat dia tunggu lama kat lobby (typical VIPs, they would take their own sweet time but yet easily get angry if we MACAI made them wait plak...) Then, I jumped from my bed, susun barang2 nak bawak balik. Unload all things from my big bag, then started to do a checklist. Then I finally found out that baju for my adik ipar takde lagi..emm..kena shopping lagi? Ikshhhh....self guilt sebab takut overspend lagi.
Masuk office, byk plak email from Jabatan Haji to THTS, Bilik Gerakan and Pentadbiran but all via me.. hehehehe....Funny...it shows how often I read email, tu yg they rely on my email to get in touch with all of thems.And again, so happy sebab dapat email from my bestest friend whom never give up to update me about my office back home. Thanks Cikmad....So excited, terus reply his email, quite panjang, tell him about myself di sini plak. Oh well, berborak is our fav thing to do in office and i miss that moment with him.
After berbuka puasa, I went up to do my solat, then nampak a phone call from Malaysia and "hello?", "Fie...." "Aiikkkk???? Sayang, I thought you went to Singapore? Memanglah. It is a day-trip. I have changed my mind. "Sayang, I miss you very much...dah tak larat dah ni..Balik lah cepat" Oh my god!! That is so heart-breaking. I was so flattered with him. Speechless. Sayang, I miss you too, God knows. I am counting my days right now. I told him, "sayang, if you can patiently wait for 64 days, kenapa 12 days pun tak boleh nak tunggu?" He said..."Dah tak larat la sayang....I seriously miss you, and I want you by myside" Anak-anak mana sayang? "Semua kat rumah mak, dah tidur dah.." . Kesian...Earlier I made a proposal to Pakman after return from Syisya not to continue the digital testing since Zainal is willingly to take up this job upon his turn 1427H. Then can I go home together with you on 25th? Senyum aje Pakman....He said, atleast buat satu jee...
After Isya plak, I got sms from my so-called secret admirer in Malaysia, saying that he miss me so much. Ni kenapa pulak satu hari ni banyak betul manusia kaum Adam yang rindu nih? Mana yang authentic mana yang hoax? But one thing for sure, I miss my husband terribly.
I was amazed with the article that I have read over the internet. "Difference bewteen Men and Women". If my bestest is around, i bet we both will argue about this article in which I guess it is quite true.
http://news.yahoo.com/s/nm/20060119/od_nm/science_revenge1_dc
Last week babah called me said that he demanded abang and kakak to sleep at home after zarief slapped zaidan (merah pipi, kata opah) I spoke to abang.."Mama, abang pukul zaidan. Noti noti zaidan, then abang pukul zaidan" I asked him "Kenapa abang pukul zaidan" "Zaidan marah abang, then abang pukulla.. Noti Zaidan" Then he laughed.....emmmm I guess enjoyed looking adik dia kena pukul ehhh?? Heheheh.. kids.. esp boys...Then i told abang "No no pukul Zaidan, Allah will cut your hand" then abang said "Sorry mama, I love you , mama" I told him, "You should kiss and say sorry to Zaidan". Then dengar he said, "sorry zaidan". Cute eh? What I wanted to convey is, cuba refer to the article, womens can easily rasa kesian, while men can enjoy on someone's elso misfortune. Dalam ayat rock kapak, would be, most men is so slamber and insensitive. Sorry sayang, I didnt mean all these to you, love. Not all men laaa....
Done nagging. I guess, I prefer to keep positive in me. Need to off now.
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